The next chapter!

Hey hello there! So, the year ends here! What a roller coaster it has been. Ya! I know, I know, Long time, no see. Haven’t wrote in a while but this year have taught me a lot of things.So, let me share my feelings with you and let me know in the comments if our feelings are mutual?

Another year full of adventures, travelling and experiences. I have mixed feelings about this year. You know december is my favourite time of the year. It doesn’t have one particular reason, it’s the cold wave that touches my face that feels so fresh, it’s the shorter days and the longer nights, the blanket and the hot coffee that reminds me that, well! I lived another year. December is not just a month but a celebration for me. The nostalgia that gives me of Foggy sports days in my school, the ice cream cone after my tution and the winter night walks with my favourite people. December reminds me the best part of my childhood. You may relate to any other form of happiness over the year like winter is for me.

Well in the rush of our lives, the race of which we have become a part unknowingly , we all are definely forgetting those feelings. Aren’t we? We all have lots on our check list to be completed in certain timeline, keeping ourselves unneccesarily occupied. It would have been so nice if we would have stopped following and comparing eachother’s timeline and accepted the fact that everyone has their own timeline, own pace to acheive in life. It’s not a competion, it’s not a destination either rather it is the journey you had matters.

This year started with self-doubt, confusion and restlessness. you know that feeling of getting stuck and not able to move forward? well! I felt the same about my job. Being an ambitious person, unable to navigate my career made me feel clueless and worthless. But here I am grateful for the people around me who uplifted my spirit and helped me to sail through this storm.Haha! Dramatic enough? Yes? No? Maybe?

Well we all have been a lot through out the year! Haven’t we? Well, the best part is that we all are here in december, overcame and enjoyed whatever came our way and lived through the year. I am proud of you and you should also feel the same about yourself.

The next year which is 2024 has a lot of surprises may be bad or may be good or maybe it might not feel anything but today let us promise ourselves to do better than we did this year. Be kind to others but most importantly to ourselves, empathetic towards others but also understand and accept that we are doing our best. It is now time that we acknowledge that some things are not in our hands and we need to forgive ourselves before anyone else to be at peace. Hoping this new year brings a lot of self awarness and self acceptance and may we all find peace with in ourselves and feel content with our lives. Let us promise ourselves to keep learning and growing no matter what!

To the people who have always been there for me! Thank you! and people who left, Thank you!
So, here we are, the year ends here! What a roller coaster it has been.


Dear Ex

You know what I don’t find any point on writing a whole blog on you. But I am writing a blog for someone who could relate this, For them whom I could comfort by giving them company in their sadness that every ex have given to their ex.

Starting from the day you leave saying that we ain’t worthy of your love to the day we realize that you ain’t worthy of anyone’s love. We go through a rollercoaster of feelings, fall into depression the hell lot deeper where no one could drag us out but we ourselves.

When you leave us abandoned,used and depressed we don’t blame you,rather we blame ourselves for not being enough for you instead of realising how unworthy you are for the try. I have no bitter feelings for you,even better? I don’t want to have any feelings for you. I would never have love but I would not waste my hate on you. So chill.

You never blame yourself for cheating on us but start giving explanations for how we are not made for eachother. Do you even respect yourself enough to atleast speak truth to your own soul?? Do you even realize that saying someone ugly and unworthy is a hurtful thing? Do you?

Ahh no you don’t and that being the reason behind you being the ex and not the present. Since childhood I have learnt to thank everything and everyone that teaches you lessons and gives you strength. I would ofcourse thank you for giving me pain which is the biggest strength I could ever have.

We learn to deal with the pain,know our worth and never look back for the unworthy people like you.May be you’re worthy for someone else , something else but you’re definitely not worthy of our love,care and respect. Do you realise using someone when you need them is not loving them rather it’s exploiting them.

To the one going through pain and need support.please stop blaming yourselves. you’re much more worthy than you think. Realisation is all you need. Loving yourself is more important than being loved by the other.I know it’s difficult but its worth a try. Trust me you’re going to be ok someday and thank god for everything happened. 🌹

–Mamita Mallick

Lots of love ❤️💕